Chronological Crue is proud to
share these emotion stirring memoirs with Crüeheads every month, of an
extraordinary relationship that grew between a special young fan and
the Crüe's engine room, Nikki Sixx. Come on the journey with us, as
every month we chronologically re-visit the meeting and treating, the
tears and the fears, the inspiration and dedication, of this unique
perspective on life, Crüe and fate. These chapters are written and
contributed under her preferred alias of Angel Aderhold.
Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll - September 2000.
thunk it? Here I am backstage at a Crüe show and on my way to their
hotel! If my friends could see me now. Miss Goody-Goody leaving with
Nikki Sixx! WOO HOO! And away we go!
wait, my paranoia returns as I have a million things run through my
head again... "How are we getting there? In a limo? In a shuttle van?
What about my car? Are there seatbelts in the limo? What if we get in a
wreck? Because I can just see my Daddy hearing that his little girl was
found dead in Nikki Sixx's lap crushed in a limo." I didn't say a thing
but I must have turned pale as a ghost because Nikki asked, "What is
it?" I didn't want to look like the dweeb that I was, so I just blurted
out, "I'm not leaving my car here. I’ll drive to the hotel so I can
leave when I want!" and Nikki said, "I'm not holding you hostage. You
can leave any time you want, but I doubt you'll want to!"
I am in my car thinking, "I need a paper bag to breathe in. I'm gonna
faint, or puke or SOMETHING!" LOL! Now, we've all heard of Elvis
Presley having his ‘Memphis Mafia’ and the same was true for the Crüe.
They travelled with an entourage of people. Some were here because
Mötley Crüe wanted THEM there and others were there because THEY wanted
to be near Mötley Crüe. There were people that the Crüe wanted around
and there were ‘wannabes’ who tried desperately to get a taste of the
life the Crüe led. Regardless of how and why they were there, there was
an entourage that was pure Mötley! It was so funny to see the Crüe at a
4 or 5 star hotel. It was so ironic... SO Mötley! When the entourage
arrived it stuck out like a sore thumb and I felt like the WHITE sheep
of the family in a flock of BLACK sheep! LOL! Mötley Crüe in a five
star hotel, to me, was like a Salvador Dali painting in a Monet exhibit!
who exactly parties with the Crüe? It could be anyone from sports
figures, to actors, to strippers and porn stars, and everyone in
between! Now, what exactly do you do with Mötley Crüe? ANYTHING YOU
DAMN WELL PLEASE! Do you want women? There's plenty of that to go
around with names like E. Norma Stits! Do you want drugs? Alcohol? Then
Shoney's ‘All you can eat’ breakfast bar doesn't hold a candle to this!
If you've ever been to Mardi Gras in New Orleans (the only
place to truly celebrate Mardi Gras) then you understand the
couldn't get over the expression on my face. I had the eyes of a child
meeting Mickey Mouse! Either that or a ‘deer in the headlights’ look!
LOL! Nikki introduced me to person after person and I was almost numb.
I am usually very good with names and hear someone's name once and
remember it for life, but in this case I was really looking ‘blonde’
when I'd ask someone for the fifth time, "Now what was your name
again?" I was feeling out of sorts, like this was a movie that I was an
extra in and I really didn't belong here. So I kind of soaked it all in
like a sponge and said, "No thank you!" a gazillion times to offers of
alcohol, drugs, and then the ‘come-on’ lines! UGH!
normally pretty laid back and nice to people and if I'm not interested
in someone, I decline gracefully, but this one dude was just relentless
and I stuck to Nikki's side like glue to stay away from him and he
STILL kept approaching me. I finally turned and said, "Look A$$HOLE,
your princess must be in another castle!" and Nikki cracked up!
heard that the girls favored Vince. WELL, that is an understatement!
That's not to say that there weren't girls hanging around wanting
Nikki, Tommy and Mick because there were girls around them too, but
with Vince it was like a swarm of bees... flies on a piece of
watermelon at a 4th of July picnic! LOL! I couldn't believe that girls
were kissing him, I mean tongue down his throat, one after another
right in front of everyone!
if THAT shocked me, then boy was I in for a surprise! I would turn
around here, talk to someone there and bang - clothes were flying and
dropping to the floor and I was like, "OH MY GOD!!!!! Are they doing
what I THINK they're doing?" I suppose naive must be my middle name
because I had HEARD that things like this happened, but SEEING it...
HOLY $HIT! I had never even seen a porn flick and here I was with a
ringside seat! LOL!
wondered, "What must it be like to have people throw themselves at
you, LITERALLY?" Then I thought, "What kind of person would Mötley Crüe
actually want to DATE? It would seem that it would HAVE to be someone
with one hell of a personality because that's all that would set you
apart from the masses when everyone was tall, blonde, tan, gorgeous,
with enough silicone to bounce and enough saline implants to make the
Pacific Ocean envious. So, do the guys ever get sick of ‘tits and ass?'
Does it all start looking the same like 'all in a day's work' to a
gynaecologist? Well apparently... NO. LOL! The Crüe was like, "BRING IT
ON... FRESH MEAT!"
are performing sex acts and I'm lost deep in thought wondering if they
(the Crüe) ever got bored with it and Nikki says, "What are you
thinking?" I was like, "UH... NOTHIN!" He asked if I wanted to come
with him for some privacy and for some reason I didn't think, "OH MY
GOD... is he gonna rape me?" like my personality usually would. I
thought, "GREAT... Calgon, take me away!" So, we were alone and I felt
really calm, for once in my life but I wasn't sure what to do/say so I
did what I always do in that case - started blabbing like a broken
record! Those of you who know me are probably laughing right now
because you know that 'THAT'S ME.' LOL!
surprised that Nikki enjoyed my ranting and raving. He would ask
questions and I'd blab more, barely coming up for air, afraid of a
moment of silence. Then I started talking about Nikki's lyrics and how
under-rated he was and anyone who knows Nikki knows that Nikki may have
struggled with a lot of demons in the past but doubt about his work was
never one of them! LOL! He responded well to the 'stroking of the ego'
and we talked on and on and I told him that my take on his writing was
that if Shakespeare was alive, he'd say, "I wanna meet this Nikki guy"
because You're All I Need" could rival the likes of "Hamlet,
Othello, Macbeth, Romeo..." as one of the great 'Tragedies.' With
all of that said, Nikki was ’all ears’ and asked how a 17 year old
could possibly know so much about life? I told him that my Great-Granny
taught me when I was barely walking, that the key to life is to ‘LIVE"
and not merely ‘EXIST’ and that I LIVED every day. So I figured that I
had packed in about 80 years of wisdom in my 17 years of life.
opened his arms and said, "You're really something" and I gave him a
hug. All of a sudden I felt like a pit bull and didn't want to let go.
I had a rush of pleasure I had never felt before and all of a sudden
thought, "What the hell... so what if my clothes drop like leaves in
the fall. I've got to lose my virginity SOME time. I can't think of a
better way than NIKKI!" Then it was like that scene in Animal House
with the devil and angel on my shoulder... "Do it", "Oh no you don't",
"YES", "NO"... and I came to the conclusion all of a sudden that this
WAS the first time I had been alone with Nikki. I can't let him think
I'm just like those ‘other’ girls who fall at his feet. I can't give
Nikki broke the silence and the ice by saying, "Are you packing heat?"
I was like "HUH?" He said, "You know... I didn't notice that you had
big... well... that..." and I said "OH, my big tits?" LOL! I explained
that I took ballet, tap, jazz, gymnastics, and was a cheerleader and
that I didn't want to 'jiggle' AND that I didn't want guys at my school
to look at me for THAT reason so I always wore those minimizer, sports,
support bras to 'hold things in place' and he said, "You shouldn't...
All of a sudden I realized what time it
was and thought, "OH $HIT... I have to go... NOW!" and Nikki said,
"What? NOW?" and I said, "Yeah, you see... I AM still in school and I
snuck away to be here and I have commitments... school, football games,
cheerleading, Key Club...yada yada yada... not to mention my Daddy
who's SOOO STRICT!" Nikki said, "So, is this it? Or will I see you
again?" and I said, "You'll see me... soon. I just have to go home NOW"
and Nikki asked if I wanted tickets/passes for next time and I said,
"NO, I already bought my ticket but you could tell me who to talk to in
order to ‘get to you’ next time and he said, "COOL." I grabbed him and
hugged him and said, "Bye" and ran off like Cinderella afraid
her coach was about to turn into a pumpkin.
DID spend the night with Nikki... just NOT in the original way I had
planned! I thought it worked out pretty well though... that out of all
of the people hanging around, that Nikki wanted to see ME again! I was
ahead of the game... already knew what shows I was going to and when
I'd see Nikki again. I wondered on the way home, "What about Vanity? Is
she still engaged to Nikki? If she's there next time will she kick my
A$$? Will he ignore me if she's around? Will he act like he doesn't
know me? Tell me to get lost? How soon is too soon to have sex with
someone and NOT have them think you're a slut? Second encounter? Third?
Should I attack Nikki next time?"
see, I didn't want to play ‘hard-to-get.’ I wasn't into games... the
REAL me was a lady who wouldn't have sex without an engagement ring on
my finger but the OTHER me that Nikki brought out was like "Where the
hell did YOU come from?" I couldn't wait to TASTE Nikki! Next Month, I
really get to KNOW Nikki Sixx!
month, Chapter 4 - The Circus & The Cave
See you there,
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'16 / '17
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